a pOem for him...

UNSEEN

I wasn't supposed to feel for you this way.
But lately I've noticed,
That just a thought of you completes my day...

I wasn't supposed to think of you this way.
But somehow I feel,
That you wanted me to be okay...

I wasn't supposed to wish for you this way.
But being around you,
Wipes away my worries...

I wasn't supposed to yearn for you this way.
But when you're away,
My mind seemed to look for you inside itself...

I wasn't supposed to long for you this way.
But the look in your eyes,
Wants me to be lost in it forever...

I wasn't supposed to hope for you this way.
But the way you care,
Makes me feel secured and loved...

xoxo,

Mae =)

Get Inspired!

Wow! I've missed this!

It's been a while since the last time that I pOsted sOmethin' here in my blOg. It was quite a lOng lull huh?!

A lot have happened since that last blog post of mine (i'm referring tO my an answered prayer pOst). A few of those events that tOok place were quite sad, sOme were a bit manageable, and mOst of them were surprisingly great! As a matter of fact, I can say that this year has been sO gOod tO me (and i give the entire credit tO my great man up there... my GOD!)

I guess, GOd have seen hOw I patiently tried tO handle thOse shOrtcomings I've had. From the almOst-ruined friendship, tO schOol-related struggles, and tO deaths Of friends and lOved-Ones, all Of these I've tried tO face gallantly like an eager sOldier on a battlefield. I believe GOd have seen me all throughout my hushed weeps and my clandestine sufferings that I've tried my best nOt tO lose my grip On HIM.

And I reckon, my faith On HIM has paid Off!

Yes, I feel sO blessed lately! It seems like all thOse misfOrtunes I've once had and are having are OvershadOwed by God's myriad blessings towards me! It seems like every time I'm disheartened abOut sOmething, He wOuld give me sOmething that wOuld cheer me up again! Now, mOre than ever, i feel much closer tO GOd.

I guess this is prObably the reasOn why despite being SINGLE fOr a very lOng time ( I feel like i've been single since birth! hahahah), I'm very much inspired lately! hehehehe...

I just lOve the way things are gOing On in my life right nOw!

I've gOt... a cozy family at hOme
... amazing friends in schOol and everywhere!
... nice intern supervisOrs at wOrk (internship thingy)!
... gOrgeOus crushes both on t.v and in "reality" (guyz whO kept me
literally inspired!) hehehehe...like lee min hO and my WEATHERMAN!
and lastly, I've gOt my One great prOvider and savior up there!


Sure thing, it feels sO great tO be inspired!

xoxo,

Mae =)

In GOd's TIme!

Hmmmmmmmm... lOng time nO blOg!

Well, so what brought me here? I mean, why did I decide to write another blog entry?
Hmmmmmmmmmmm... let's just say the conversation I had with a friend of mine made me decide to blog my thoughts right now..

You see, my friend, let's just call him my textmate, asked me if I could advice him about some love stuff that he's experiencing as of the moment. But before I could do that, he also asked me to read his note/blog about that dilemma he has. And so, being the ever-obedient friend, I did read his note.

And you know what, I was literally smiling while reading his note from start to finish! Wondring why? Let's just say that the some of the scenes that he's trying to picture out and trying to recall are quite familiar to me! Why did I say it's familiar? Well it's because I was also doing and thinking the things he'd done and thought about. The only obvious difference though is the gender of the person that we liked...wahahahahaha...

But kidding aside, I was really amused knowing the fact that I'm not the only one experiencing those so called "cheesy attacks". Like those "I can't seem to get you off my mind" and the likes stuff.

Whew! I was really relieved! I AM NOT ALONE! I thought that I'm the only person left in the planet earth who would still feel those what other people may call, "unconventional and out of this world cheesiness". Thankz tO "my textmate", I realized I am still sOmewhat nOrmal! hahaha...

Anyway, yeah...Me and "textmate" are sOrt Of walking On the same rOad here! He's cOnfused with his feelings tOwards sOmeOne, and sO am I! He's feeling and thinking things that he's unsure if he shOuld be feeling Or thinking (like tO the pOint of getting way ahead Of things). In the Other hand, I'm trying tO avOid thinking Or feeling anything tOwards that sOmeOne. Or shall I say, I'm trying tO ward Off Or entertain any stupid "prOphetic" thOughts abOut that sOmeone. In shOrt, I'm trying tO get my mind free Of any assumptions or presumptions I may say.

But it's an amusing thOught thOugh that even if we're in the same situatiOn here, I was able tO give "textmate" sOme piece Of advice while I have nO idea On what tO dO with my Own dilemma!

I fathOm it's indeed easier said than dOne! You can't always trust yOurself tO practice what yOu preach!

Textmate's life with that sOmeone and my life with this sOmeone may seem vague as Of nOw; and I may have nO clue as Of the mOment On whether my wOrds were able tO help my textmate/friend, but One thing is fOr sure thOugh...


we'll definitely find the answers that we're searching fOr, at the right time, in GOd's time!...

P.S.
this blOg post was suPpOsed tO be pOsted way befOre the date tOday... i was suppOsed to pOst it last apirl 29th bUt I wasn't able to finish it, not until now... ehehhehe

xoxo,

Mae =)