PERD CLASS: My Thoughts On CHANGE

As a saying goes, “If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies.”

     From the smallest creature, to every flora and fauna, to the tiniest particle of the matter, and to each human being, we all do undergo change; it may be in form, size, shape, and behavior.




    Change is indeed inevitable. Every thing in this world, living or not, changes or has to change in order to serve its purpose. Whether we like it or not, change is naturally around and within us. Change is the only constant thing in this world, and change is a sign of growth. 

    Change can both be good or bad, depending on how you view it and deal with it. If taken positively, change can be of great help in order to improve or enhance a person’s quality of life or perception on certain things.  Like in our country’s present situation, we all want to reform the kind and quality of governance we have had in our country for the past decades or so. In order to achieve that, we must change our wrong concept and ideas of what a true leader should be.

    
     On the other hand if we choose to hinder change, then for sure we will never learn to grow and we will never have the chance to discover new things and possibilities. Abortion for instance is a way of hindering change to take its natural course. People, women in particular, who underwent abortion (not for health reasons) are in a way begrudging that life form to grow up and discover the world.

    Although change is a need, it has to come from within us as well; we have to accept it willingly and be open to it in order for it to take place. We all know that we have flaws, we have imperfections, we have limitations; but if we gladly recognize these faults within us and accept the notion that we have to do something about it, and so we then can finally allow ourselves to grow up and change for the better. For example, a talent manager never fails to remind his talent to change her attitude problem so she will be able to stay longer in the business. No matter how religiously and willingly this talent manager extends his guidance to his talent, if the talent herself isn’t going to do anything about it, then she will never grow as an artist/actress.

    Change as a whole could really be of great help to us, as long as we do it for the good of ourselves and most importantly for the good of everybody. As what Winston Churchill said, “There is nothing wrong with change, if it is in the right direction”.

   


    I know ever since that I am born with flaws and imperfections. Since I know there are tons of me that need to undergo renovation and overhauling, I would just mention those things that I think are the most in need of immediate aid and repair.

   One thing that I have been trying to change ever since is my being lazy and this “mañana habbit”. I don’t know why most of the times I tend to delay doing certain things especially if I think they’re not that important to me. Every time I have a certain task to finish, I don’t do it right away and instead wait for the “twelfth hour” before doing it. It may sound stupid but I have this thinking that there will always be time for everything, and sometimes I think I work better and faster if I’m time-pressured.

    Another thing that I have really been working out on is my self-esteem. It might not be that evident, but every now and then I am struggling to keep my self-esteem at bay. There are certain situations and instances wherein it triggers my “self-wallowing” mode. Although it’s much easier for me now to pull myself back from the ill-feeling of self-pity but still I hope that I will not be encountering such doubt on myself anymore.


     Patience is also one of the things that I have been mustering and mastering for quite some time now. It’s one of my “work in progress”.


    Honestly, I’m really trying hard to change my being lazy and this “mañana habbit” that I have. In fact, there are really times that I can get pass through it, but I just can’t help but fell back into this “tiresome feeling”. I believe that I have to practice conditioning my mind that “time is of the essence”. Instead of telling myself that “there’s time for everything”, I would now remind myself that, “I don’t have all the time in the world”. I need to act now and don’t wait for the chance to pass me by unnoticed!

    With regards to my problem with my self-esteem, I guess I need to give more trust to myself. Although compared before, I can say that I’m doing well with trying to boost up my morale now. If before I get easily drown by the “I-pity-myself” feeling, now it’s much easier to pick myself up from my negative train of thoughts. I believe I have to think more of the great things I have accomplished and imagine the better and greater things that I could do in the future so I will not be swallowed back into the awful feeling of self-pity.
   

     Lastly, as what I’ve said, my patience is one of my “work in progress”. I have long been aware that I am impatient and there’s a need for me to control my temper. I know I have to do something about this to avoid bringing more damage to the relationship I have with my family and other people. Because of not being able to control my temper, I tend to say mean things and worse, I tend to talk back to my parents/elders. I know that hurtful and unkind words could bring greater damage and injury to a person compared to the physical pain we could cause them. I am also aware that not being able to control my temper won’t do anything good to me or to others that’s why I took the initiative of changing myself and pushing myself to learn to be patient. I believe that eventually, all of these “reformation” I have would be for my own good and for every one else. =)


~pOsted this nOte later than the actual day i wrOte it...=)

xoxo,


Mae =)

twitlonger for @tinkeylicious

I knew @tinkeylicious frOm twitter... she's One Of the few peOple i wOuld really take time reading on their tweets... We're bOth MELASON (Melisa and Jason Of PinOy Big Brother Double Up, fOr thOse whO didn't knOw)  fans but that's nOt just the reasOn why i kinda get hOoked w/ her tweets... I guess this gOes tO shOw that twitter is nOt just sOme sOcial netwOrking site tO gOssip abOut peOple, clOthes, new stuff and the likes Or pOsting Of senseless updates Of Ones self... I believe twitter Offers mOre than that, and it's sOmething that can be super tOuching and nice... like creating FRIENDSHIP!

 sO here, i'll share what i thOught abOut her and her tweets... (this was my initial reactiOn when i fOund OUt that she received hate-tweets frOm haters & bashers)...


>>frOM my twitlOnger<<

mae olmos masbate

On Friday 26th February 2010, @weathergurl_mae said:

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@tinkeylicious, i wish yOu cOuld read this...sana yOu'll have time... hehheheheh^_^

Feb 26, 2010
Super late reaction na talaga akO.. hehehehe.. i've read yOur tweets yesterday w/ regards tO the #MELASON thingy(i dO take time in readiing your tweets everyday:D) and thOugh i wanted tO say sOmething right then and there, my time didn't allOw me tO dO sO kaya ngayOn nlng akO magte-tweet...

anywayz, i just wanted tO tell yOu that i'm One Of thOse peOple whO truly appreciate yOur tweets, may they be #MELASON updates Or just purely yOur thOughts.

I admit thOugh that i fOllowed yOu at first because i wanted tO be updated w/ #MELASON moments, but later On i grew fOnd Of yOur "side cOmments" and w/ yOur "amazing vOice" sa mga campaign/vOice clips. Believe it Or nOt, yOU're One Of the few peOple that i wOUld immediately lOok fOr while i'm back reading my twitter; and believe it Or nOt, i spend mOre time reading yOur tweets than the many celebrities i fOllowed. (Di tO char-char, as inz!C:)

If yOu're wOndering why i hanged-on and remained as yOur fOllower (like the Other thOusands Of fOllowers yOU have whO stayed) thOugh PBB DOuble Up is Over, well here's why:

1. You sure dO makes a lOt Of sense when yOu tweet... i lOve the way hOw yOu spontaneously speak your mind! You dOn't care whether peOple wOuld agree Or nOt with yOur OpiniOn. As lOng as yOu were able tO "let it all Out" & yOU didn't dO harm tO anyOne in the process then it's CHOKZ lng...:)

2. You knOw when tO have FUN! You might be very seriOus when it cOmes tO sharing a piece Of yOUr mind but yOu sure knOw hOw and when tO break the ice!

3. You're entertaining! heheheh.. i dOn't grOw bOred w/ yOur tweetz, especially during thOse "campaign/vOIce clips mOments"! Your vOice is music tO the ears indeed! You're like the "VOICE OVER DIVA" Or sOmething! (IDOL! hhehehhe)

4. We share the same thOughts On certain issues. mOst Of the time i still find it amusing & amazing reading yOur tweets because Of the fact that we share the same sentiments. It's like yOu're speaking On Our behalf (thOse whO share the same thOughts w/ u specially On #MELASON issues.) It's a relief tO knOw sOmeone whO cOuld speak for Others!

lastly,
5. I learned frOm yOu!... yeahp! i sure had cOuntless Of learnings & realizations frOm yOu;I guess i need nOt tO enumerate them. but i assure yOu, they're all cOnstructive learnings/realizations!

So that's it! and with that, kudOs tO you @tinkeylicious fOr being an inspiration. keep yOUr tweets gOing, dOn't mind the haters (they knOw nOthin but tO hate!) and GOD BLESS yOu!

>>PEACE, L♥VE, & everything NICE! ♥mAe Of CEBU☺♥

Short: http://tl.gd/c0bl4 | Posted from Twitlonger

xoxo,


Mae =)

MISTAKEN FOR LOVE ♥

He has a face that could turn heads. He stands at a towering height of five feet and 10 inches. He exudes confidence when he walks. He’s friendly and approachable, a lady’s man perhaps. He has this irresistible charm that you just can’t simply turn down.  He has an appeal that could draw every woman’s attention… and I wasn’t an exemption!

The first time I met him in the flesh was during one of their workshops. I was an intern at a productions company and he was one of the candidates of a male pageant that that certain company is organizing. The moment I’ve seen him I told myself, “The photo I have seen didn’t give justice to this fine creation of God standing in front of me! He’s far more attractive in person!” For a second I thought I won’t be able to get my eyes off this guy on a green polo shirt which highlighted his fair white skin and emphasized the good-looks he possess. And when we were introduced by one of my boss’ I was surprisingly amazed with how friendly and accommodating he was; then at that instant I developed a thing for him called… CRUSH.

From then on, I can’t help but get excited every time I see him. It feels like I’m a love-struck high school girl once again! It seems like my chinky eyes would suddenly transform into a pair of heart-shaped eyes every time he looks at me when we talk. I don’t want to sound like I’m another whining, low self-esteemed girl but never in my wildest dreams have I imagined that a guy as gorgeous as him would waste any of his time nor attention to a girl like me.

I mean HELLO?! What’s there to complain right? This is exactly what I have hoped to happen; for him to at least spare me even a millisecond of his time. And yes, I wouldn’t deny it! I love the attention he’s given me! I feel like I was the prettiest girl in the world every time he lends me those coveted time of his. It’s indisputably OVERWHELMING for me.

It was overwhelming, too overwhelming in fact to the point of having mistaken his friendship for something else. I thought he could like me, fall for me if not. He was an epitome of my modern-day prince charming… and I’m the damsel in distress that he has come for to be saved and protected.

 I became so caught up with my admiration for him that my sense of reasoning was overpowered by my emotions. My reality was clouded by my self-made fantasies. My logic was blocked with my careless impulses. For the first time in my life, I went after something I want without paying that much attention to what others might say. For the first time in my life I’ve learned to let go of my worries, I’ve learned to take the risk, I’ve learned to gather up my courage and fight for what I thought would make me happy… and then I woke up!

I finally came across reality and realized I wasn’t Cinderella after all.  I was just an ordinary girl with an extraordinary imagination. I found out that he was somebody else’s prince, not mine. I was just his confidante, nothing more and nothing less. And surprisingly, it feels good to leave things that way. I’ve accepted that fact wholeheartedly; no regrets, bitterness nor whatsoever.

I may not have a “happily ever after” ending with him but still I believe ours was a happy ending. He became one of my precious collections; we became friends, we remained GOOD FRIENDS. I guess I have just mistaken the friendship for something else, something like… LOVE; but I knew better now.

xoxo,


Mae =)