PERD CLASS: My Thoughts On CHANGE

As a saying goes, “If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies.”

     From the smallest creature, to every flora and fauna, to the tiniest particle of the matter, and to each human being, we all do undergo change; it may be in form, size, shape, and behavior.




    Change is indeed inevitable. Every thing in this world, living or not, changes or has to change in order to serve its purpose. Whether we like it or not, change is naturally around and within us. Change is the only constant thing in this world, and change is a sign of growth. 

    Change can both be good or bad, depending on how you view it and deal with it. If taken positively, change can be of great help in order to improve or enhance a person’s quality of life or perception on certain things.  Like in our country’s present situation, we all want to reform the kind and quality of governance we have had in our country for the past decades or so. In order to achieve that, we must change our wrong concept and ideas of what a true leader should be.

    
     On the other hand if we choose to hinder change, then for sure we will never learn to grow and we will never have the chance to discover new things and possibilities. Abortion for instance is a way of hindering change to take its natural course. People, women in particular, who underwent abortion (not for health reasons) are in a way begrudging that life form to grow up and discover the world.

    Although change is a need, it has to come from within us as well; we have to accept it willingly and be open to it in order for it to take place. We all know that we have flaws, we have imperfections, we have limitations; but if we gladly recognize these faults within us and accept the notion that we have to do something about it, and so we then can finally allow ourselves to grow up and change for the better. For example, a talent manager never fails to remind his talent to change her attitude problem so she will be able to stay longer in the business. No matter how religiously and willingly this talent manager extends his guidance to his talent, if the talent herself isn’t going to do anything about it, then she will never grow as an artist/actress.

    Change as a whole could really be of great help to us, as long as we do it for the good of ourselves and most importantly for the good of everybody. As what Winston Churchill said, “There is nothing wrong with change, if it is in the right direction”.

   


    I know ever since that I am born with flaws and imperfections. Since I know there are tons of me that need to undergo renovation and overhauling, I would just mention those things that I think are the most in need of immediate aid and repair.

   One thing that I have been trying to change ever since is my being lazy and this “mañana habbit”. I don’t know why most of the times I tend to delay doing certain things especially if I think they’re not that important to me. Every time I have a certain task to finish, I don’t do it right away and instead wait for the “twelfth hour” before doing it. It may sound stupid but I have this thinking that there will always be time for everything, and sometimes I think I work better and faster if I’m time-pressured.

    Another thing that I have really been working out on is my self-esteem. It might not be that evident, but every now and then I am struggling to keep my self-esteem at bay. There are certain situations and instances wherein it triggers my “self-wallowing” mode. Although it’s much easier for me now to pull myself back from the ill-feeling of self-pity but still I hope that I will not be encountering such doubt on myself anymore.


     Patience is also one of the things that I have been mustering and mastering for quite some time now. It’s one of my “work in progress”.


    Honestly, I’m really trying hard to change my being lazy and this “mañana habbit” that I have. In fact, there are really times that I can get pass through it, but I just can’t help but fell back into this “tiresome feeling”. I believe that I have to practice conditioning my mind that “time is of the essence”. Instead of telling myself that “there’s time for everything”, I would now remind myself that, “I don’t have all the time in the world”. I need to act now and don’t wait for the chance to pass me by unnoticed!

    With regards to my problem with my self-esteem, I guess I need to give more trust to myself. Although compared before, I can say that I’m doing well with trying to boost up my morale now. If before I get easily drown by the “I-pity-myself” feeling, now it’s much easier to pick myself up from my negative train of thoughts. I believe I have to think more of the great things I have accomplished and imagine the better and greater things that I could do in the future so I will not be swallowed back into the awful feeling of self-pity.
   

     Lastly, as what I’ve said, my patience is one of my “work in progress”. I have long been aware that I am impatient and there’s a need for me to control my temper. I know I have to do something about this to avoid bringing more damage to the relationship I have with my family and other people. Because of not being able to control my temper, I tend to say mean things and worse, I tend to talk back to my parents/elders. I know that hurtful and unkind words could bring greater damage and injury to a person compared to the physical pain we could cause them. I am also aware that not being able to control my temper won’t do anything good to me or to others that’s why I took the initiative of changing myself and pushing myself to learn to be patient. I believe that eventually, all of these “reformation” I have would be for my own good and for every one else. =)


~pOsted this nOte later than the actual day i wrOte it...=)

xoxo,


Mae =)